into the zone

miscalculated facial expressions and involuntary muscular actions placed me at the limelight tonight. great. just when you are at the midst of sweating off the negative energies of your body, a great force that misinterprets your actions brings you back to the negative side of the plane thus making you the ultimate antagonist of the night.

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further review and loop-listening to the song i love you, goodbye (first relased by celine dion on her self-titled album back in 1992 and was revived by philippine artist nina off her nina live album back in 2005) sent me to the bitterzone where each word, each line and each stanza of the song hits like a bullet to the heart. yes, that’s the bitterzone for those with freshly wounded hearts. i used to like the song, thinking that it’s just another nice, mellow song, but then again, this song reminds me of some people who could have sung the same song to me. huhlolz. i used to hate the guts of the singer persona here. full of excuses and shit. “you don’t need me.” “there are more important things to consider other than our relationship.” “you don’t deserve me.” but hey, isn’t she hurting too? lol. but anyways, hearing this is more fuckin painful than singing this to someone. trust me.

below is the lyrics for your review:

wish i could be the one
the one who could give you love
the kind of love you really need
wish i could say to you
that i'll always stay with you
but baby that's not me
you need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
promise you forever, baby that's something i can't do
oh i could say that i'll be all you need
but that would be a lie
i know i'd only hurt you
i know i'd only make you cry
i'm not the one you're needing
i love you, goodbye

i hope someday you can find some way to understand i'm only doing this for you
i don't really wanna go
but deep in my heart i know this is the kindest thing to do
you'll find someone who'll be the one that i could never be
who'll give you something better
than the love you'll find with me
oh i could say that i'll be all you need
but that would be a crime
i know i'd only hurt you
i know i'd only make you cry
i'm not the one you're needing
i love you, goodbye

leaving someone when you love someone
is the hardest thing to do
when you love someone as much as i love you

oh i don't wanna leave you
baby it tears me up inside
but i'll never be the one you're needing
i love you, goodbye

baby, its never gonna work out
i love you, goodbye

*** /wrist