Preconceptions and Presumtions
Last night, as i was watching the Jomari/ Ara Mina brake up scoop and interview, lashes of memories from the past, whether good or bad, consumed me. As crappy as it may seem, I find myself lingering again on my past moments with the "past" person that I loved.
When I can't contain the consummation with my memories anymore, I ate dinner. But it was really stupid to have the experience of getting chunks of the past each time I take a bite of my meal. Really absurd. Suddenly, an image of "her" appeared on my mind, though quite vague compared to the earlier images. I quickly got an absurd feeling that something I dread to happen may happen.
The phone rang.
A sudden glinch of fear tugged my ribcage that sends shiver down to my nerves.
Pls. Not "her." I subconsciously beg.
Suddenly my lips are nailed with each other.
I tried to fight back.
Trying to sound like her, I tried to sounnd as norm,al as I can.
We had a quick conversation.
I'm both glad and happy that she sounded as if nothing happened.
Am i dumb? no.
I can't contain it anymore.
I hang up the phone.
Afterwards, I continued eating.
I watched the tv again.
Jomari and Ara were not there anymore.