wanted this feeling

just seconds after the closing credits roll on the screen, i feel like i wanted to be a kick-ass gunman, an assassin that can wear a sleek black leather jacket, and make bullets dance in the air as i shoot them and chase their targets.
see, this is what the movie wanted made me feel. since i got off from the movie house, i feel like an empowered geek ready to bring down my enemies with just one ala wesley gibson shot.

although some scenes were reminiscent of the matrix movie, director timur bekmambetov presented the movie in fast-paced sequences of action bearing a plot that is easy to follow.

james mc avoy delivered a great performance. he is the perfect burned-out accounts manager and the perfect assassin that can shoot bullets that bend their way in the air. great actor, mr mc avoy is. from being the faun at narnia’s first movie, i’d say he has improved a whole lot.

saying that angelina jolie is hot is an understatement. she sizzles. wooh! she is the sun. she makes me go crazy around her. she owned the character. since her debut as lara croft to being the mrs smith alongside brad pitt, she has been the perfect kick-ass female movie action star for me. her eyes are just piercingly hot, powerful and fierce at the same time. and did i say she is still gorgeous even in death?

morgan freeman also played the mystery of his character very well. his reserved actions and his conversing glances at the camera made him effective in the film.

despite the fact that the film veered away from most of the original plot of the graphic novel, wanted by mark millar, (discarding the costumes and most of the villains) the writers and the director still pulled off an exciting easy to follow plot. of course there were loopholes much like the small holes in between the woven fabric made by the fates that sends a binary code taht dictates who shall be annihilated next.

oh and by the way, the movie made me think if i am in any way related to rats.
i mean, i am crazy over peanut butter like those exploding rats in the movie.

coming soon

the colors of nature were desaturated during that morning ride at the bus with the student activists. people were all in fire to go to their destination. on the other hand, me and one of my closest high school girlfriend were anticipating our visit to elbi.

the bus dropped us down to the rural elbi.

before the acres of rice fields could greet me a not-so-good morning, i shouted “iskolar ng bayan, ngayon ay lumalaban!” on the top of my lungs

seconds later, i heard the echoes of uproar from the bus, red flags waving from the windows, painting the air with the burning spirit of nationalism.
then off we head to the gate of elbi.

a scruffy-looking guard in blue uniform halted us and asked for our identification. i told him that i am an alumnus of the university but he gave me this skeptic look of an old, sex-deprived andropausal male.

“i.d. pls!” he said.

so i rummaged the contents of my wallet but the id was nowhere.

i reached down the pockets of my pants and caught the plastic identification in between my fingers.

“here’s my id, it’s blue you see?”

after a minute of scanning that piece of plastic, he let us pass, but he shot us another sharp look before he halted another person passing through the gate.

as my highschool girlfriend clutched on to my right arm, i run fast to catch the shoot of juday and sam milby’s movie. it was a new movie production set in the muddy area of the ricefields. i just forgot the title it must have been judy and milby in the mud. i am not exactly sure. something like that. anyways, up to now i am not quite sure what was there to rave about juday and milby’s new movie. maybe it was because of the leak i got somewhere in the internet that juday’s character will be a pig wallowing in the mud that transforms into a human. something like that. more like angel locsin in lobo, but this time, the animal transformation is a pig.

we braved the pools of mud and went to the group of people that more likely appeared to be shooting the film. we were running like crazy as if we were persons who have repressed our pee for two days, looking for a place of comfort, when a group of 3 women who looked like corazon from marimar sprang in front of us.

“no more shooting. sam milby is outta here, yah know!” said the center woman who resembled the size of big bertha (you remember the logo of the big bertha bakery in the philippines?)

“you guys better get back” said the other big momma-like lady

“excuse me ladies, we are in a hurry!” i said.

“no, you can’t pass. milby’s outta here!” said the third lady.

“but i don’t care i have to pass. for all i care, juday could still be there you know!”

then my high school girlfriend pushed a way in between them and we ran as fast as we could from the huge boulder-like ladies.

as we are bout to cross another ricefield, my sister emerged somewhere and waved at us, showing us the way to the shoot. i think juday was still there.

so we ran. we ran and ran and ran like mad dogs excited to see judy ann turn into a pig. then i woke up. what a bitch. i never saw the pig. my head aches this morning, i swear. it was one of the most awful nightmares that i had in my life. more awful than me in a power ranger suit battling aswangs and mananananggals.

twenteen

reading holden caulfield while travelling on a subway train can be amazing and depressing at the same time. amazing because i found out that i can relate to most of his thoughts about life and how the world is dominated by phonies all living their superficial lives.

depressing, because the fact that the world is not just about you and your thoughts and how you want things to go your way, that you only keep most of the things you feel and think to yourself, and that your hope of a better society is such a utopian and farfetched idea if most of the people remain apathetic as they are, will all dawn to you in one huge blow.

the rain of today

i am doing one hell of a typing job earlier when i hear the pouring of the rain outside. i glance at the circular glass window and i see the dark, gloomy and hazy atmosphere outside. i know it is raining. i can almost smell the vapors of the earth entering the pores of the room (it’s the one that you usually smell after the rain pours on a very hot piece of land or when the sun shines hot over the wet earth). i swear i can see the drizzles of rainwater outside. add to that the fact that i hear the familiar sound of raindrops hitting the hard surfaces of the earth.

the rain starts to make me feel better and lighter. the effect is different today. before, the whole atmosphere of the rain puts me in a minor mode of sadness and depression. maybe it is all because of all the media and pop hype about the rain being emo and all. but i admit, sadness would always creep in whenever it rains. but as i said, today’s rain is different. somehow it triggers the happy-nerves of my body that helps light up my positive aura.

then i start imagining all the dirt, and grime, and trash outside being washed by the rainwater. the feeling of elation is at hand.

so after feeling the entire positive aura all over me, i decide to check on the rain outside. i choose to look at the bigger and clearer window near the staircase at the warehouse. and lo and behold! the land is still dry as yesterday, beaten by the perky sun and this week’s heat-wave. there was not even a single evidence of rain outside. dear lord, i am seeing and hearing and imagining things.

i wonder where the hell the sound of the rain came from. then i see the culprit-the electric fan, standing on one end of the room, creating those rain-like drizzling sound all over the place. it makes me smile though, imagining the rain and all and being happy by just the mere thought of it. maybe that’s why today’s rain makes me happy.

Save lives, watch the Dark Knight in Advance!

Go out and watch one of the most anticipated movies of this the year, The Dark Knight, with stars Christian Bale, the late Heath Ledger, Michael Caine, Aaron Eckhart and Maggie Gyllenhall, and HELP SAVE LIVES.

To you who will watch the movie ahead of most people, the Philippine General Hospital
Sagip Buhay Foundation is offering premiere night tickets for the reasonable price of 250 Pesos each. Sagip Buhay Foundation is a non-stock non-profit organization that helps indigent patients in the PGH wards and intensive care units avail of potentially life-saving medications and diagnostic tests. It has been helping needy families of the seriously ill for the past fourteen years already.

For a ticket that’s not even twice the usual ticket price in SM Mall of Asia, you can enjoy Dark Knight before most people would get to watch it aside from also giving those in need a hand in helping their loved ones fight the biggest challenge of their life.

What: Dark Knight Premiere

When: JULY 18, 2008 (Friday)

Where: SM Mall of Asia

How much: 250 pesos

Again, all proceeds go to the Sagip Buhay Foundation. For more tickets and inquiries please text Dr. Adrian Paul Rabe at +639163333603.

**thanks to Benj of atheista.net for sharing this info!

*all italicized text are lifted from atheista.net

canine rants

barking has been a guilty pleasure despite the sporadic pain it brings the chest. it is a form of freedom, a form of release that we have been doing since we were kids but we’re not aware of until we felt the immediate transition of the pleasure of barking from the pain of containing the tickling sensation of the throat.

for weeks i have been barking wildly from the moment i wake up till the second i drown myself under the pool of my thoughts. during the day, i try to repress my bark, which is sometimes mistaken as a growl, to avoid the judging stares of the people from the bus and from the train. i would hold back as long as i can to keep myself from barking into people, but that leak somewhere in my throat that sends droplets of water-like mucus to my esophagus forced me to release what everyone else would normally call a severe cough.

at night my barks break the symphony of the choir of snores that dominate the empty spaces of the house. during the day it marks my presence in the streets, in the subway, in the office and in the house.

if only i haven’t felt like a canine for weeks, i would have called it a simple cough that is chronic and triggered by seemingly micro fibered organisms that tickles and trickle down the walls of the esophagus.

barking has been my new language for days. it sends out my longing for flesh, and my sharp smell for fear. it is my call for companion, my invitation for a meaningful conversation, my request for intimacy.

i kill time by chasing pussies along the way. but pussies are swift to run away from canines, especially when they hear your barks. maybe pussies are meant to react that way. they must have been born scared of barks before knowing that not all that barks bite.

one reason to love global timezones

you get to celebrate your birthday longer.

this applies to people living in the north-western hemisphere of the globe that were born in the orient.

considering the application of the daylight savings time (DST), there is a 15-hour time difference between the philippines and california.

the philippine timezone is PST (UTC+8) while the state of california belongs to the pacific timezone (UTC-8).

to all my dear friends miles away from the philippines who greeted me 15 hours earlier, thank you very much. this has been the longest birthday hours that i have so far. thank you all!

happy

this post was written 34 days before this day in response to a birthday meme i got from a friend.

1)go to wikipedia.
2) in the search box, type your birth month and day but not the year.
3) list three events that happened on your birthday.
4) list two important birthdays and one death.
5) one holiday or observance (if any).

events:

1812 the usa declares war on britain.

1981 - the aids epidemic is formally recognized by medical professionals in san francisco, california.

1940 - "finest hour" speech by winston churchill.

birthdays:

james paul mc cartney, artist, 1942

james montgomery flagg, artist, 1917.

death:

1959 - ethel barrymore, american actress (b. 1879)

holiday/observance:

autistic pride day

today also marks the centennial celebration of the university of the philippines

_________

note to self:

today, be happy, just be plain happy.

make everyday your day.

hui!

you are a series of movie trailers that pulls the interest of the senses and draw them inside your world filled with the mist of false impressions that you own the story, that you are the movie.

you are short-lived yet you overflow with excitement and drama.

you are the type that i would love to watch over and over again; of course, under the hope that in one instance i may get to an epiphany and get the whole score from you.

the days have taught me that you can never be the movie.

you are an ejaculation, a split-second orgasm. nothing more, nothing less.

you are just a movie trailer.

global timezone

it's so gay it sucks!

you, cholera

you are gabriel garcia marquez’s love in the time of cholera on screen.

you are the story better preserved in the pages of a novel.

you are magic realism lost among the frames of the film.

you are poetry that vanishes each time an actor speaks.

you are the motion in the screen that entices the eye but leaves the soul hanging.

you are the voice muted by the setting and the props.

you are shakira’s music that compensates for the lack of magic.

you are the story, but you are incomplete.

you are the movie, you entertain, but you are boring.


you are an ambitious illusion

ten rules for being human

by cherie carter-scott

1. you will receive a body. you may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.

2. you will learn lessons. you are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."

3. there are no mistakes, only lessons. growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. the "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."

4. lessons are repeated until they are learned. a lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. when you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.

5. learning lessons does not end. there's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. if you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.

6. "there" is no better a place than "here." when your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."

7. other people are merely mirrors of you. you cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.

8. what you make of your life is up to you. you have all the tools and resources you need. what you do with them is up to you. the choice is yours.

9. your answers lie within you. the answers to life's questions lie within you. all you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

10. you will forget all this.

langgam

sa sala ng isang kubo sa liblib na bayan ng gabaldon

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masyado kang makasarili. hindi mo na inisip si itay.

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para ‘to sa kapakanan ng mas nakararami.

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tama nang nawala si inay. alam mong tatatlo na lang tayo dito.

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hindi naman ako nagkulang sa inyo. sinasama ko kayo pero ayaw niyo ni itay.

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sa tingin mo ba makakasama sa iyo ang tulalang si itay? magmula nang mawala si ina hind ina siya makausap ng matino.

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hindi ba kayo umaasang makikita natin doon si inay?

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nahihibang ka na ba? hangga’t matino pa ang pag-iisp ko, hinding-hindi mo magagwa ang mga kalokohan mo lalo na ang balak mong paghila kay itay sa bundok.

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wala ka nang magagawa ate, nagkataong hibng din ang nanay natin eh.

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sabi ni inay huwag daw nating ipapahamak ang ating mga sarili.

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mas mapapangalagaan natin an gating mga sarili kapag sumunod tayo kay inay.

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wala na siyang iniwang bakas. ano pang susundan mo?

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sapat nang bakas ang mga iyak at sigaw ng mga pinaslang ng mga militar sa kabundukan.

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walang lalabas sa bahay na ito!

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nakalabas na si inay.

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tama nang may isang lumisan.

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nakipaglaban siya para sa atin, para sa bayan.

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maari ka namnag makipaglaban nang hindi mo tatahakin ang landas ni ina. huwag mo kaming iwan.

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lagi ko kayong kasama sa mga ipinaglalaban ko.

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samahan mo na lang kami dito

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alagaan mo si itay.

lalabas ng pinto dala ang bag